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My petals are fading

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Please give me a window I hunger for the sun How can I grow in this dark Gray cell with metal barricades blocking the nutrients from the light Every day that pass I lose a petal to the dirt Yet my thorns continue to grow If I could just hear the birds sing to me My Rosey color would return from the blush of love But you take away the songs of God creations and replace them with walls for your rejected beings Who can love a Rose that is dying The fading of color is no longer appealing I'm withering yet my thorns continue to grow Sharper and sharper it becomes trying to protect the rest of It's lifeline I fear they will grow until the beauty of my petals fade away The thorns will only be protecting its memories A time when a person wouldn't even notice my shield of the thorns or the prick of the finger Just to place me into their hands to brighten the day Place me into the vase of love Refresh my soul with the waters of hope Cut away my thorns, so I can be held Please give m

Dear Lord, Can I Live?

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I'm walking around with this weight on my shoulder, yet my smile is getting broader. I'm I alive? I keep asking myself. Can I get a taste of life... Will I get the taste of life, See how amazing it is. Do the things I really want to do? Have a bite of success and happiness. Every goal I reach feels like it's not enough I need more, some say I should look at what I have, look at what I've accomplished not what I don't have, not where I'm heading. Enjoy the journey, not the destination. I can't do that, I can't. Worse of it all whenever I achieve what I want feels like it's not enough I want more. I want more of these. I want money, I make millions and it feels easy, I want more and more of these, When is it going to end? or does it? I want to be alive, live a life without fear and worries. Have fun, party whenever and wherever I can. Laugh with friends. Spend time with my family, Get a little more love and affection, some attention. Maybe I have all t

Success

I hold no dream of fortune vast, I do not ask when life is past Nor seek undying fame. That many know my name. I may not own the skill to rise To glory's topmost height, Nor win a place among the wise, But I can keep the right. And I can live my life on earth Contented to the end, If but a few shall know my worth And proudly call me friend.

Best Relationship Advice for this month of love

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  1. Don’t think “I’ll change them.” No you won’t. 2. It’s you TWO vs. the problem, NOT you vs. your partner. 3. Healing takes place in safe relationships. Not all relationships are safe. Some can re-traumatize your core wound. 4. If you fall in love with their soul before you touch their skin, it’s true love. 5. You got to be able to roll with the changes. The person you’re with at 25 will evolve by 45. 6. All relationships have one law. Never make the one you love feel alone especially when you’re there 7. Don’t let being lonely make you fall into low-energy relationships. 8. Be with someone who loves you, even when you’re not the easiest to love. 9. Your desire for support, trust, and deep connection isn’t a flaw and isn’t a weakness. 10. True intimacy comes from vulnerability, trust, and honesty. Best wishes. Reference: Sherry Cam Quora.

I'm sorry I wasted Your Time

I'm sorry I wasted your time. I couldn't find the right moment, Every time something felt off It kills me, My head was immense with wild thoughts. Running around like a wild beast. Reminding me of what a bad idea it was to make a move So I didn't move or said anything My heart was racing beating loud as It could My air was running out, I needed more So I had to find an excuse to go I'll try tomorrow I thought And my feet kept getting cold Time kept flying we were growing old I failed. And worst of all I failed to try With an excuse of being shy Not bold enough to finish what I started. Not resilient enough I hesitated I'm so sorry for wasting your time It's probably too late now The bridge is already crossed The gap can never be closed The damage is done

Courage

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What’s behind the open door, is it happiness or pain? Who can I trust and will I make the same mistakes again? For those of us paralyzed by fear, what does the future hold? We could hide behind our fortress walls and watch ourselves grow old Or take the chance on happiness, knowing we could fall Will we fall in love or fall apart, for whom would we risk it all? The sage advice I offer you, “To thine own self be true” Accept that you are lovable, most importantly by you Courage and a leap of faith, is all it takes to start For when the right one comes along, you’ll know deep in your heart There are no guarantees in life, we have no crystal ball You may end up as you are now or you may just have it all Tell that someone how you feel, don’t let them slip away You're worthy of love and happiness, today and every day.

The First Day We Met

I heard music when I looked into your eyes  Despite the quiet circled around our bodies As snow crystals crept to form blankets  And if they were warm I would have crawled in Inviting you to lie beside me and intertwine  Our hands into jigsaw puzzle pieces  Fitting perfectly together to form a picture  Of the aurora borealis shining beautifully  Like your eyes softly singing to me  And your smile turning the cold into vapors Whisping into a fog and swiftly ascending  I could dream for hours of you beside me  Gazing into the purple hue of the sky  Or slithering and dancing beneath the sheets Melting the snowmen and making the angels blush

I Used To Write Poems For Her

I Remember those days like last december How she had engulfed my heart I couldn't think straight, my head was absent I couldn't breathe without feeling her in my chest She had me to the core She had me so tight, that she was the only one I saw. She was stunning, an angel without her wings I wrote so many poems for her  Her eyes were like stars glowing  tinglings I was lost in between her beauty Soaked in between her booty I wanted to fuck her brains out Everytime I saw her my heart sings Her pretty smile made me beg "please be mine"  She's  a queen, a mother to a prince Whenever she walks the earth shakes Eyes turns, necks twists  Trees bow down to her The moon worships her Sun rises so as we can see her beauty Her Irresistible smile Not a single love for her is lost I couldn't match to a goddess  She way out of my league Though every single part of me was happy Having her around

I'm not good enough

I'm not good enough I failed to fuck you countless times I know you want it. Bt where the fuxk should I start. I just admire and wish,  manifesting I'm in that coochie I regret coming over. I should be cumming over fuck it!.. I'm greatful I didn't. I'm greatful for the last time I miss you so much. But what the fuck was thar? I really loved you, I'm sorry I've feelings and a dick sometimes it's just hard to think over those beautiful tits I've failed to make you mine Felt like I don't deserve you  and that's a really bad feeling you kept pushing me to the edge I didn't push back I hate it the most when you judge me and say awful things about me when you think worse of me All I want is a smile on your face All I want is my dick in you All I want is you in my bed All I want is you on my chest after intense orgasm I'm I a bad person? It feels like it.   

I want More

 Yes! I wanted more, more of you.  more of your time  just a little more to see you blush for the last time  more  kisses. more affection  more smiles and giggles more risks and bad decisions  more of just being with you.  more of everything with you. laugh and just being happy with you around  make love and more with you. I wanna get lost in between those shinny eyes Be engulfed in your heart and p**sy more  passion as you scream  my name begging for more I want that and late night dates more talks bout life and the future  more of star gazing watching the moon more of grabbing that fire  ass I want to swim this love wave with you  I want to walk with you I want to watch you fall a sleep  I want you :( 

Why Don't you be a Man!

 I've let so many people down. Made lot of money then lost it. Made some more and squandered Made promises I didn't deliver  "I'm sorry" for the 100th Time Called to shows I didn't show up.  Called to interviews I didn't show up. Backed down from big  collabos and gigs Ruined perfect dates and beautiful nights  Ruined what could be a good relationship  Broke hearts.  Shot half shots Failed to try Wasted countless opportunities with stupid excuses Made less moves Failed to take what's already mine You think its ego but  I'm scared.  So many Insecurities  I'm all over my head  Lost touch with reality  I can't be the perfect boyfriend  I might cheat on you (Which is not true)  I can't be a good friend I might disappoint you  Once I hit, we might not talk Maybe I won't hit it right and disappoint you.  Maybe I want more and you'll say no.  Fvck It!  Scared all the time. But good at hiding it I know this is what I want but still can&

A supervilan Hero

You literally do everything right  And  you still a bad person in everyone's eyes. She probably thinks I'm a Loser. 

I Love Her, I Love Her Not.

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I love her, I love her not, Sometimes I'm scared to have this thought, Scared of what the public would say, Knowing I couldn't possibly go through pain for another day. I love her when I shouldn't, Because she has taken care of me a lot, Hearing her laughter has filled up the void, As she makes me feel like human again, Vulnerable but with emotions running all over the place. Whether or not she wants me, I can never know the true answer behind her smile, Nor the fact that she isn't here but a thousand miles. So tell me what should I do? Because it seems like I can't remember to forget you.

Visible Scars

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  Oh to love and to be loved! I open my eyes and the first thing I see is his face. His astoundingly beautiful chiseled face. I could really get used to this. Waking up every morning beside a man this perfect and quite frankly he is everything I have ever wanted and more. From his full inviting lips to his icy blue eyes to his hands. And trust me those hands know their way around. Just a single touch is enough to send cold shivers down my spine. The strain of his muscles against the fabric of his shirt was the first thing that I noticed about him the first time we met and they left me aghast. I run my hands down his cheeks and I kiss his soft lips gently. He opens one eye and then both and plants a soft kiss on my lips.  "Good morning Aphrodite," "Good morning Adonis," yes, Adonis is the only word that can be used to describe the beauty of this man. The god of beauty. The man I'm about to get married to before the day ends.  He pulls me closer and we snuggle for

Rise again and again 'til Lambs Become Lions

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I will rise Like the stunning sun, Which not once dies. Though sets every dusk, Every dawn it does rise. Like the sea and the ocean Whose wave tides Stay down many times, But continually they must rise. Like the foliage, the trees, From seeds in soil they arise, And kiss great heights, They grow, they rise. After falling once, Twice and thrice, Yet again and again I will rise and rise.