TEZO DIGITAL

Without you, my thoughts became suicidal Convinced that I was down to survival For I was fond of you, my tender heart idol Without you, my vision is hopeless Alone, left with my loneliness Can't find my focus, feeling homeless Without you, I feel my soul drift away Unhappy, the pain never goes away An inch from giving up, struggling to stay How I wish you were still single It ain't just a poem, the attraction was timeless Quitted alcohol for you made me high As my heart grew weary, my eyes got teary Swum Helplessly I was sinking for you my dear crush And help came not, you left me to keep on drowning... @Briva

 If I open up my brain nerves and spread it all across the globe half of the muscles have your name the other half held your memories my retina has lost its cons you were the colour it was addicted my eyeballs have lost what you call light my sensory nerves collapsed to blind spot you were the words I spoke your sentiments were my alphabet I lost my language and my voice I am a deaf with no choice your songs that were sugar to my ears has melted there for forever now even the most soulful music is a standstill melancholy for me you were the knife I was playing with you were the danger I was unaware of playing with my sensory organs you gifted me some eternal painful moments my heart beats just for the world inside I am dying with a razor your last words slashed up my heart your last look burnt my emotions baby these are the 7 wounds I got it was the return gift you gave my adjective may treat you well my heart knows you are worse than the hell

I'm lost in grief and weep Cuz I can't have what my heart desires I can see it Almost taste it On my fingertips But can't have what my heart desires I'm lost in dreams and weave Realities where you and I Are one I'm lost in yearn and cry Cuz reality makes you and I Over and done I'm lost in tears, unshed For to cry is to admit defeat I'm lost in madness and hope You come back and smile that tender smile, But You are lost, lost to me Cuz you let go when you thought you lost me And I'm lost, lost in a foolish land Cuz I can't have what my heart desires

 I'm the fakest person you will never meet. Everyone sees what I chose to show them,  pranking around the room, making everyone smile with my jokes. If I speak any truth then its taken lightly. Everyone ALWAYS tells me how “quirky” or “fun” I am. But that's not me. The real me talks to himself,  knowing that only I won't take it as a joke.  The real me walks around the house  reliving the times I spent with people and they actually listened.  The real me is dull, emotionless and empty.  The real me when alone, looks out of the window at night  looking at the streets below hoping something good soon happens to me,  hoping my reality changes soon.  I go outside and drench myself with rain  because i don't want anyone to see me cry.  I rejoice in the dark empty living room at 12 am because I can feel without anyone seeing me feel. I'm very alone because of my facade, nobody suspects I'm lonely.