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I Should Give Up

Should I give up on this fight? A lot of hatred In my heart To forgive Its really Hard Its Like smiling when you really mad I don't want to go down that road. I want my smile to be wide and broad I want to forgive, I want forget and take off this load Believe In The Lord, how hard Is That? Im so tired of hiding, How do I feel about that? I'm I weak because Im kind and caring? Or I'm Just pretending? I want love you, but I don't want to fall for you. I don't want to leave buh I hug you good bye. I want to go out buh I want to stay indoors. I want to talk buh Ive Nothing to say. what's the point of doing the opposite of what I like? what's the point of saying things I don't mean? what's the point of pushing away people who seem to care about you? what's the point of denying what I want? Maybe there's no answer to that. Or I'm just scared of having my feelings out Or I care so much about what people think I don...

How are We?

Please tell me something, and do not lie. Is something fading between you and I? I've noticed changes in the recent past and waited patiently, hoping it wouldn't last. I give everything I can give you, but what's given back seems long overdue. You say nothing is wrong and you are just fine, acting as if the problem is mine. Something is different, not like it was before. I'm doing my best, trying to restore The way we showed love to one another without crowding you or trying to smother. I just need to know if one thing is true. Do you still love me as much as you used to?

I Should Go.

Why do I stay when I want to go? Is it because I have hope? Or maybe it is because I don't want to be alone. I stay and all I do is complain. Complain that I might be going insane. Insane of the thought that it might be my fault. But who is to blame? Is it me or is it him? Neither one of us will go. Although we know we must go, All we do is ignore the pain Of all the words we exchange. I know I must go, but I don't know. If I go, I will be alone. But why do I stay? Only to hear him say, "You're to blame for all my unhappiness and pain." I know I'm not to blame for the choices he has made. So I stay, hoping he will grow, Grow in love and be consoled knowing I will never go.

Im so Sorry,

Hey I have a few things I need to say to you. I know what I've done. And everything I'm about to say is true. I woke up this morning. All I could think about is how I disgraced you. I'm sorry for what I've done and I feel like I've misplaced you. I know how serious it is. It hurts. But believe it was a mistake. I know you don't deserve this. The decision is yours to make. I swore that I'd never hurt you. But I've proven myself to be a liar. I'd do anything to make it up to you. Because no one can take me higher. You're the only girl I want to be with for the rest of my life. All I can think about is what I've done, it cuts more than any knife. If I'm being repetitive. I'm sorry. I just want to get this out. What I did is not who I am. I love you. It's not what I'm about. I love you too deeply to throw this all away. I didn't mean to hurt you. I still know what I did though. I do have a heart. And this wasn...

I Don't Think She Knows.

When did my feelings get so deep? Why did they take that big long leap? Going from friend to crush, What a rush, And I don't think she knows. Since when did her smile make me go weak? Since when did her tears make mine start to leak? Why does this happen when I'm always so strong? When people called me Superman I guess they were wrong, And I don't think she knows. When she talks I can't help but watch her lips, To notice their shape and curves when they dip. Wait, why am I looking? I don't even know. And I can't help but wonder if she even knows. Her beautiful eyes are nothing like ours. They're so deep and bright; you'd believe they were stars They pour forth emotions in raging rivers. They could make even me believe that Santa always delivers, And still she has no idea. Her body is perfection, though she denies it. It makes my head spin with every glance I give. She could put any man under her spell, But she doesn't kno...

6 Reasons You Are Not Confident.

One of the things that I remember the most about being younger is the fact that I had no confidence in myself. I’m not saying that just to sound like I understand what it feels like, I really had absolutely no belief in myself or my abilities. Basically, I thought I was worthless and not good at anything. ​However, when I think back at it, at least it made me understand one thing or two about confidence. You may be trying to undersatand why exactly you’re not confident, but you just can’t get it. It seems like you’re doing everything right, but you find yourself asking “Why the hell I’m I not confident ?” ​If you’re eager to know why you’re not confident, here are the most probable reasons. ​ 1.You treat people’s opinions of you as facts ​Basically, if someone says something negative about you, you automatically label it as a fact, without thinking that it’s just what someone thinks, which means that they could be wrong. To give you a clearer picture, look at the dictionary...

My Wife Was A Prostitute.

My wife was a prostitute. It all began 8 years ago when I was dumped by my girlfriend. I had just graduated and came to know that my Girlfriend was to marry a rich NRI. He was wealthy as hell. Owned couple of restaurants and petrol pumps in Delhi. Moreover he even owned 5–6 cars, all SUV. It broke my heart to see my girlfriend taking the Pheras with her new hubby. I did attend her wedding, but left soon. 2 months down the line I shifted to Mumbai. Got a job, rented an apartment with another guy and tried to move on in my life. I would drink and smoke excessively. I picked up the habit of sitting in this Ladies Bars. I was lost in a world between reality and chaos. I did not know what I was going to do in my life. I was brought up by a single mother who had died during my college days. My grandfather and grandmother took care of my further education then. I was lonely and I was lost. I was a heavy drinker and smoker and I couldn't focus on work due to my ex girlfriend. I visit...