To many you are just a pillow
A place for one to rest their head or support their back
Nothing more
But not to me
You mean more than that
Of course you cushion my head; and much more
You support my back; and much more
The bitterest of tears; those that left scars
The tears that flowed from somewhere beyond the eyes
You are the only one that saw them
Not only that, you also wiped them from my eyes;
And never complained even when I soaked you wet
Never turned me down every time I came
With so much weight on my back
And so much hurt in my heart
You held me gently, and let me cry myself to sleep
And when I woke up you were still there
There are times I punched you
Well, I am sorry I had to
I am also grateful you let me
When I was furious and mad
You let me let it out on you
Allowed me to lay it all on you
There are times I even threw you against the wall
Kicked you under the bed
Oh, I think I have stabbed you also
Once, or twice, or more times than I can count
Yet you never left, never lamented
There are secrets also
That no one else but you knows
The names of all my crushes
Those I secretly admire
Even those that I stalk
All my fears and doubts
Everything that worries me
The skeletons in my closet
You know all that
I know it is too much, and it might also be juicy stuff to pass around
Yet you have never let the cat out
Not even once
Not even after I gave you a beating without reason
You have seen all my good days
You know all my bad days
And even the lost days
When I needed to hold you, you held me tight
And never let go until I felt better
I knew I could come to you anytime
Be it morning, evening or noon
Even on the days when I had no mood
You sat next to me, and kept me company
As my mind wondered aimlessly
You never say anything
Yet you are ever there
Of course, I would pretty much enjoy a conversation
with you
But I don’t mind the silence also
In that I know you are ever present
I can tell you everything
With you I need not hide my face
Oh, you know every part of it
Thank you for being there
You are more than a pillow to me
Always will be...
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